old job
My last job site wasn't as good. The manager sucked big time. She seemed sweet & innocent. But I think she was just this big old prude who couldn't get over or face reality! It was this big whole story that I don't even want to talk about it. I just know it's not my fault. Even if it was, it was minor, and I still can't believe she got promoted to director.

4:24
Last night was great! I think it was the best time I ever had in a club. We kept most of our time away from the dance floor and danced around seatings. I know it sounds lame, but it's one of those places where everyone dances everwhere. Tables, chairs.. blah.. Dance floor was full of sleazy guys that night. I couldn't find a guy that WOULD NOT be 1 feet away at least. However a lot of my friends came and I had a blast. They played all of my favorite songs and even from Britney's new album. Then they had a lingerie fashion show. Woaw, here goes the sleazy guys all going horny by the stage again... I felt like I was in a strip club at one point. It was all good.

I just felt bad that some people had to pay when I told several that it's free before 1am. Hmm, my own cousin got mad at me. She came and couldn't find us (I think she's BSing). It's my b'day! She should shut up lol

Anyways, I'm glad that everyone came... thank you guys. I'm so grateful for having good friends. I'll post-up some pictures soon =)

weekend make-ups
I'm still not used to waking up early. Actually, I got the hang of it until Friday, yesterday. I was supposed to leave at 7:30 for work. I did wake up at 6 or whatsoever, I don't remember-- but I do remember taking the alarm clock to my bed. Then my mom woke me at 7:29ish... hehe.. I got out of the door a bit before 8. But guess what, I got to work before 8:30 which is not bad after all! I did my morning transfers. It was really busy. My co-workers, who are more like my friends now, treated Soo-Han and I for Japanese lunch. It's so sweet of them. Soo-Han and I have the same birthday! Isn't that cool! It's the first for both us- I never knew anyone who had the same b'day as me. Well, besides, Elvis Presley, R. Kelly, heheheh and- Sean Paul! All talented artists! Sometimes I wonder if I should be an artist. Soo-Han is the best programmer so that makes her an artist! but me? who knows.. lol

Eid Mubarak
The holidays were pretty fast for me. I think I gained 10 pounds- seriously. I am going to join Weight Watchers with Martina starting next Thursday. Plus, we just ordered the Gazelle machine. I am going to use that every day. I hope I can lose 20lbs or more. Other than that, I am grateful for the food on my table every day. Gosh, you don't know how much free food I've received this whole week. It's so nice knowing warm people who appreciate having you as friends.

Last week, I was treated to California Pizza Kitchen. It's one of favorite places I'm telling ya. And last night, I went to Long Island Cheesecake factory for my mom's friend birthday. She's the sweetest person with the cutest bouncing baby. Her cousin looks exactly alike. But crazy! I went clubbin with her cousin last night with my friend Elies. We went to Eugene's in 24th street. It was nice. I haven't been out for a long time. I danced my ass off. They had all the great new music on. They also had some East Indian music. Then I realized there was a lot of Indians in the clubs. I was thinking of my friend, Desi, who loves Indians. I wouldn't say love, but she has a thing for them. Hence the name Desi.

I want to go back there again. Also to Avalon, used to be Limelight. It's a gay club, but heck, I'm not looking for guys anyways. It's so much more fun there. I danced with two last night. They were so gorgeous, too. Too bad so sad.

Anyways, I felt so bad. I have to pray. I feel like I let down God again. It's just so unlike me. There are so much goals that I would like conquer. Although I love sleeping and being lazy but it doesn't make me feel good. The more lazier I get, the more idle I get. Working hard just feels good cause I feel like I accomplished something and it makes feel gr8!

I'm going to study now... because I want to reach another goal! I may write back in hour when I'm done.

So sad
Jonathan Brandis died. He was so hot, I couldn't believe it. What's wrong with people these days? It's weird. I was actually thinking about him two weeks ago, and IMB'd him... He's up to a new series and a new indie movie. I really thought he was a good actor. It's so sad. He was so adorable in Ladybugs. It's insane.

movie month for me
I saw a lot of movies lately. Matrix was really awesome! I think the ending was perfect. Adrian complained that it should gave out more detail, and that there would be a fourth chapter. I really am not sure about it. I think it's great how it ended and giving us a clue about Neo's destiny.

I also saw a kids' movie, Brother Bear. Really touching, you will be surprised what happens in the end.

What else did I see? I saw that Clooney flick. Gorgeous George..ous Gorgeous. They looked too good together- they can be siblings.

I saw Elf- stupid funny. I can't wait to see Cat in the Hat! Mike Myers! that's my man!

I had ticks to see Brendan Fraser and was it with POD? I love this dude! I always wanted a guy with his persona. He's just so hilarous, it makes him sexy! I love Encino man and blast from the past- i have it on dvd!

busy tired
It's been so busy at work. Not in a good way, it could be better, a whole lot better. And I'm deciding whether I should take up a new client project by Monday. It's all about the money which I really need right about now- but if I can't do it, it's not my fault, right?! I'm so undecisive. Not everyone likes their job. I just pray and thank God that I get a full plate of food everyday. Thanks to mom... lol, I put that for my graduation ceremony broadcast. My mom complained that I didn't thank everyone else. I felt bad after she said that considering the amount of people that came to see me walk.

I know I can change a whole different subject in a blink of an eye, that's why my I can't be a writer. I'm never to the point, always going in circles, to stall and not conquer. But I think people get the point of it eventually because it is all about getting your stuff out!

I wished I followed the show, Married by America. I didn't know that an old classmate, Jill, was on the show. News like this travels quick on campus. Omg, I have to tell you that in school, people used to talk very negative about her. I always thought she was so gorgeous and sooooo friendly. I was kind of upset with the rumors because I never would think of that. She had such a good aura, she always light up the classroom, seriously. I wish I could've talked to her more. I didn't even know she was an actress/model. I "googled" her, and wow, did I find some interesting facts. I was like you go, girl! I'm glad she's up there and making our stupid alumnis look like fools and prove them wrong.

Anyways, back to reality for me.

I went for dinner at an Indian restaurant on Friday. It was called Bombay of India on 6th street. Really great. The lights were all over the place, literally! I had such a fun night even though it was brief, making fun of Desi, she's the bomb. I'll always go for my Tikka Masala.


So this muslim guy is trying to talk me. He went to my school also, we had class together. I only remember one class, but he seems to remember other classes. I never liked him, however hes seems to be questioning me if I ever did. I'm trying to play it off without hurting him. I don't know seems harmless but gosh I feel like vomiting when it comes to persistency. I don't think he understood why I said some fancy-schmancy-sarcastic remarks. There's a meaning behind it, you know. Hence, the barfing. I thought he would normal, but I changed my mind in an instant. I wish guys were just patient and get the hint! I meant, girls do, and we're always the one that ends up hurting. But hey, thats a different story- that's when liking the wrong guys.

311 pt.2
Yes, I'm still thinking about 311. I'm ripping out 2 of my favorite songs to mp3 because I love it so much and I can't get any clear one off any p2p network. I popped it in my computer and learned that album cover was shot at an old hotel. I have a thing for paranormal. I'm not scared or don't want to believe in it to often because I believe it might get to you. And you will become psycho yourself. I only fear God. But this stuff always intrigued me. Back to the old hotel, it's in California, I assume, and has been shut down since 1989. It looked pretty spooky to me from the inside. Kind of like the Stephen King book/movie: The Shining. Hmm, but I wouldn't bother JUST doing a shoot there. Why don't they just make a video there as well? I am a late fan. My friend said a video came out.. haha, I must check out the fan website for it.

I have to stop watching paranormal stuff. I think the more I get older, the more scared I get. I was fearless when I was younger. Maybe because I was naive. I watched all sorts of 80s horror movie, especially since they had better flicks back then. I still haven't catched Freddy vs. Jason. I thought it would be stupid because after seeing Jason X-- I was like wtf?! Plus, never combine two movies together! Even if it's in the same setting and area. I just don't get it. I wil probably rent the movie though when it comes out.

I must say that I got my horror thing flick from my dad. He's the one that introduce us to Amityville. I don't know how long my brother and I have been "fascinated" with this house. I have to say, not anymore. Around 3 years ago, my bro, cousin and I went to long island to find this house. We were reaching the evening already, and we got quite lost. We asked several people how to get to the street. Oh my, website fans were right. They always get sightseers and tourists almost every day. Some people were too friendly, and others just gave us the meanest look: old jogger ladies. Anyhows, we took pictures of the house. It looked like a normal house. It was beautiful in fact. I have to say it's one of the smallest in amityville. It was right off a lake, too. We actually went around the lake and saw the whole house. Wow, goosebumps. My bro read up on the investigation and was telling us the story meanwhile. When I got the pictures back, it looked normal until I looked at it for the second time. One of the windows had small light opening? I'm guessing it's the reflection of the sun...but the left side was covered by trees? how can that be.. any you know, some pictures, had some entity circles. Maybe I'm a bad photographer. But I know I'm not that bad. After this trip, we both were pretty spooked out. I think I even threw the pictures away.

Anyways, there was much more to it, but I think I'll keep private it for now unless you ask me. I'm so tired. I actually lost my voice this morning. The weather wore me out. I went to a great shabu-shabu yesterday. Yumm, I want to take my parents there next time.

my pets
Since I don't have a dog or cat to show... My fish looks funky, I think I blinded them. Don't mind the dirty aquarium. And that goldfish on the right corner. He's a naughty one. He attacked so many fish. I'm giving him to Elies' dad. He loves goldfish. He has 3 tanks full of 1 lbs goldfish. I have no idea what he feeds them, lol!



I already made my phone gay. I like my pink plate better but it has a lot of scratches! This was the original face that came with the phone. ORANGE!

gonza!
I was watching a piece on Hajj pilgrimage on PBS. It made me want to cry thinking of all the history ..that I surfaced.. I would love to go there someday. My mom went last year. I'm just glad she went when she is still young. I feel so bad for the elders. It's a tough pilgrimage but it's admireable how strong they are.

My boss was asking around if he should watch Whale Rider. I told him that my brother saw it, and it's about a young girl going through puberty, lol, or something like that. My brother saw it by himself, (like any other independent movie-goer do, lol) because his boss gave him 10 bucks to watch. He thought my brother's a Maori, native NZealander. It's funny, the people in NZ thought we were that, too. But I didn't think it will carry all the way here.

I miss Lennie and Crystal. I want to head out there to visit them-- ATL and Cali!

I have this 8x11 print up on my wall. I want a bigger one. But I haven't found one besides on ebay. Maybe soon I will and I'll give to one of my dear friends.



I don't believe in horoscopes but it fills my positive head for the day.


Here is your horoscope
for Monday, November 3:

Compassion mellows the edge of your business instinct. Believe what your senses are telling you. Even if you don't consider yourself an artist, the stars let you think like one.

When I was younger, I used to consider myself very artsy- I drew, danced, acted, played piano, guitar, clarinet. I could've been an actress! I hunged with the bizarre kids, too. I almost went to Laguardia high. My cousin went there, but he's in banking now, lol. I feel very boring now. I think I should head to pearl paint one day and get some paint oils and a few canvas since my room is blah... I'm tired talking about myself.